fear cripples me so easily. part of that is letting my mind wander where it shouldn’t. but part of it is satan’s scheme to tear me down bit by bit until i am completely overcome by fear that i no longer feel hope or see that there’s a Father waiting to save me if i just let Him. my fears are usually really irrational too: mom and dad are going to die in a freak accident, i’m never going to graduate, i’m going to be stuck in circumstance xyz forever, i’ll be alone forever. but sometimes these fears start out small: i’m nervous about dad flying home tonight. and then when i don’t allow my Father to capture that fear, it grows. and it becomes a monster. it becomes something so big that my human mind can’t comprehend how it wouldn’t become a reality. so this is what i’ve learned (mostly from my dear mother’s teachings): when i try to wrestle my own fears, i lose. but when i fully surrender them to the power of my Father from the beginning, my fears cannot win. and they are no longer my fears because I no longer claim them.
live without fear. live free.